I Started Nothing, I Wish I Didn't

I guess it was just the tiny little ways of the Greater Powers up there to remind me that procrastination will make me suffer the consequences.

The 'tiny little ways' being the title above.

The reminder occurred when I was choosing a song to put for my title, and this song came up (the co-incidence is scary, mind you, at 1.32 in the morning)

Anyways, I have a good mind to start on my land law assignment

I even know the outline already, which means that I do not have to go crashing head first into every walls before screaming 'Eureka!' (in satisfaction, triumph and pain of course).

If only I had so much enthusiasm in Land Law as I do in Bejewelled, which I am currently addicted to no thanks to the likes of Alvin, Aloo and Angeline.

But then again, I still have not cleared the issues that resonates constantly in my head yet. And I am getting very sick of it. It is like a disease that refuses to leave. it bites and won't let go.

I am trying not to think about it but you(s) will not let me go.

Maybe it's just me, you know, I know I can be a difficult person at times

and I know how self destructive I can get, to points of no return.

Teach me how

Tell me how

and I might be able to get some sleep with ease at last.

Because right now, I feel so powerless.

I do not have an ounce of energy to deal with it anymore.

If you(s) care to turn and look and see what you might still consider as a friend suffering here

I'll be glad to know before I move on.

*credits to wehearit*

Haha, if only it were this easy. I do not have to think of a million why's and move the fuck on.

The clockworks of my mind would not allow it to stop. I wonder when is it that I finally lose it completely.